Limits: My Worst Nightmare

I feel like I’ve had a big shift happen over the last week or so. My thinking cap has been out in full force and I’ve been mulling over things that have randomly popped out into my head. A few of those have been big surprises to me. Some have been what I’ve know for a long time and I’m finally coming home to it. The biggest one it all about limits.

Personal limits, writing limits, work limits, life limits. 

To me, it’s a little bit daunting. I don’t work well with limits, in fact limits terrify me. They make me feel caged in and make me want to run away. It’s horrible. It’s like structure and I think that the hardest thing about being consistent with my blog, is that I struggle with finding a way to sit down and actually write every week. I don’t like to have structure in many things. Although with work schedules and uni timetables, I’m okay with structure because I can work around what I want and need to do around that sort of stuff.

So while I mused on limits I came to a conclusion: screw limits. I’m going to aim higher and do whatever I want (granted the work limits I need to put into place with my retail job!). The biggest realisation I’ve had is that I don’t need a word limit for my second novel. I thought the first draft was finished, but I know now it’s not. I can write it again but I know that I need to complete unhinge my main characters, break them down and then force them back together.

Why do I put personal limits on myself? Why do I feel the need to play smaller than I want to? It’s fear and ego trying to wrestle me down. I know that now, which is why I’m working harder on my coaching business. This baby is ready to come out. You’re ready for it, I’m tweaking it and making sure that it’s perfect for you.

I don’t need to play small, or have limits that stress me out and make me feel like I’m falling into a dark hole. I need to rise up (thanks Danielle LaPorte) to meet the world. I’ve got this. I know i do.

I surely can’t be the only one with limits. What limitations are you putting on yourself? Do you find yourself being unable to do much of anything with limitations? Let me know in the comments, I’d love to hear what limits you’re breaking free of.