I just felt like i was logging into tumblr when i logged on here…wow. Everything is starting to look the same on the internet…this is not good! Fleeee! Okay rant out.
I’ve been writing a bit and when i first started doing this (before I had the whole picture in my head like I do now), I used to write as scenes came to me. It was the only way that I could get anywhere and I know that I was on the right track. I thought i was crazy and it wasn’t until I went to see Tara Moss speaking about her book Hit and plucked the up the courage to ask her about writing broken scenes vs the linear did I really accept that it was okay to do. She is so very much one of my idols. It wasn’t until I met NaNoWriMo did I start writing linearly, and I think that’s killed my muse, (yes there is no such thing as muse and if there was, mine is tall, dark and handsome with very nice arms…mmmm). I managed to scrap through with a terrible first novel I finished, but came back with a vengeance the next year. You see, my story is a 6 part series. It has to be and I’ve already finished one of them thanks to Nano. It’s a terrible rough draft of close to 80,000 words. Well it’s not terrible, there are some really good points in it but with the plotting I’ve done in class last year, there is so much more lore I need to put into it. I found that there is so much more to this character then I initially thought, and that’s great, but between her and the loud wolf that sometimes pops up in my head, I find it hard to sit down and actually complete the first draft I want to do now.
Lucy’s story is by far the hardest, because it has been with me for ten years. I have been through the highs and the lows and some of her experiences are mine, but to a much harsher extent. And some are just…not. They’re almost impossible to write because I have never experienced them, I don’t know what it’s like, so I’m guessing on how it would feel like and what it would do. Doesn’t everyone preach that we should write what we know? Sometimes that’s not always applicable and you have to go with the flow.
Which I’ve managed to do. I’ve spent an entire day just musing on my story and sure there will be people who won’t read my story in the end, but all that matter is that I love it. I keep trying to figure out if I can change the names of people in my novel, but I think after being with the same name, they are fighting so hard. So I’m going to give up on actually trying to get them to do what I want and embrace what they want to do.
On a side note I have started Lover Reborn by JR Ward and I can’t put the bloody thing down. I keep trying to sit down and write but my brain just got TohrmentTohrment. I waited so long for this book, I just want to chew through it. Thanks to my best friend who grabbed this for my birthday! Also getting new music is great too. A housemate introduced me to Periphery and Red’s Release the Panic is out and I’m listening to it on repeat! I think I’m just going to give on trying to write for the moment and enjoy reading Tohr’s story and go from there. I really need to start doing book reviews on the books I read…but I get too engrossed in the novels to do it objectively…maybe?