You know I always knew the mind was a strong muscle but until yesterday I never knew how strong. I’ve always known that my writing and I have had a strong tie to my emotions. In times where I’m beyond upset I can’t write a single word. I’ve tried. I’ve written in tears before; I’ve written with my head telling me that I shouldn’t. That sort of pain is hard to write in. Some writers can do their best works in times of high emotion, they’re lucky, really lucky.
Being close to useless was hard, I watched Veronica Mars on the couch before finally passing out for the night, but it got me thinking, is there a way to box up the emotion and set it aside? This morning, I sat down to write. I’ve been musing on my next scene for ages, so much so that after I’ve written it and I now feel like it actually doesn’t even need to be in the book, but I’m trying to figure out how to make it work, but I’m getting distracted again.
Writing this morning was work. It was actually painful and I kept getting distracted. I kept slipping away from the writing I was meant to be doing and slipping into Twitter or Facebook. I was resisting and I know it, but after this hell whole of a day (emotional hangovers are NO fun), I had somewhat of a breakthrough. I’ve been working through Spirited and I came to the section where I had to take a look at the my inner mean girl and comparisons and judgement. It was then that I felt something switch in me, like a burden lifted off my shoulders. I know that I’m onto something and I know that tomorrow I can sit down and do everything that’s on my to-do list and get it done. I can do this.
Have you, my lovely dreamers, found yourself trying to struggle through emotions to get somewhere or produce something? Let me know in the comments below.