I feel like I just stole a Linkin Park song title…oops.
Today I want to talk a little bit about the all and mighty powerful Fear.
Fear has been something that I spent my entire life dreading. As a kid I suffered from a case of anxiety that even my doctor didn’t know I had. It wasn’t until I was old enough to actually understand the symptoms that I even know it was a kind of anxiety problem and it seemed to stay with me for a very long time (even now I get mild cases where I have to check and recheck facts and places before I’m 100% sure and okay with it). Fear is debilitating and it’s also a stupid emotion. We need fear in moments when we’re in danger but beyond that, we don’t need it. Or well sort of. This year has been all about busting that Fear Demon and I’m going strong. While I was doing my vision board I stumbled along a great quote.
This one. And it’s so true. 90% of you who say you want to write a book and you have every intention of writing it but there’s the fear of it actually being finished; of actually writing a piece of work that holds you back. Who cares if it’s going to be crappy, stop double checking the facts, sit down and actually write the damn thing. I stumbled across Fear at the end of my novel. I was literally 10,000 words away from the end and my antagonist lost his drive. He just poofed out of it and I was left going. What the hell do I do now? I know now that I was projecting. I had spent years and year avoiding writing “The End” and it was coming back to haunt me in the butt. So I did it and it was the scariest most exhilarating thing I have done to date. My baby is now in the editing process and I’m stuck again. This time with the Fear of changing it to something that I never envisioned, but it’s for the better. I’ve realised this. We are never wrong when we make up the rules, we are only wrong when we resist to make them and follow the norm, something that is against what our hearts tell us to do.
Fear is a state of mind. If you do something that you fear, you grow. You really grow. I did Body Attack for the first time last year and it was the scariest thing I’ve done, but it was worth it. With every class I can feel myself getting stronger and leaner and breaking through the resistance more. It’s a beautiful feeling.
Do something that scares you guys, get back to me about what it is. I really want to know what you’re doing to bust your fears.